Thursday, September 23, 2010

he wants to bowl with the gangstas

This is Chewie's new favourite song.
How do i know this? Because the second we get in the car he says; "I want White and Nerrrrdy Mama"
Or if we're sitting at the dinner table: "I want White and NEerrrrdy Mama!"

So, this song has been getting serious PLAY at my house.  And when Chewie bobs his little head and sings along... ".....NERRRRDY!........NERRRDY!!......"  it's too frikkin' cute. 

He's getting more and more hilarious every day, and more and more conversational.  It's hard to remember that he used to be a baby that did nothing but eat sleep and poop.

Really, though, this post is to distract me from the fact that i'm at 30 1/2 weeks right now.  Only a hop skip and a jump from where i was when i delivered early.  I'd be lying if i said i'm not TOTALLY freaked out.  I am. 

And it's made even worse by the fact that the past couple of weeks have been very uncomfortable.  Last night before bed my stomach clenched and was hard as a rock!  Braxton Hicks?  and then early this morning, i woke up to crampy type pains on the right side of my belly, and today i am extremely puffy.  So i'm chugging down the water, and trying to breathe and not think about it. 

I have to focus on November 7th.  That is the magic date - the date where i'm allowed to deliver at home... in water... as per my birth plan.

As we've not decided whether or not Artoo will be our last baby, there's always the thought of "This is it! This is the last time" for all these things.  I just want to have a normal delivery.  I don't want to look back and think that both times i did this i failed. 

Okay, i know i didn't fail - that my body got Chewie out before things got really bad, but it's hard to go to that place when you're already emotional.

So, Dear Artoo.... Please hang in there buddy.  Just for 6 1/2 more weeks.  Then you can come!  Okay? For mama? Thanks.


Suzi Q said...

You didn't fail, Chewie was just excited to get out and meet you! It'll all work out...

pixiekissed said...

You definatley didnt fail! You managed your delivery without an epidural which is huge!. A birth plan is fine and dandy, but nature has a way of reminding us sometimes somethings are not under our control.

I went onto a parenting forum after my emergency c-section to see how other mothers handled their experience, about 75% of the women posting on that forum lost their babies before the doctor could get them out. It made me realise how truly lucky I really was.

The natural birth experience seems like such a great experience to have under your belt but you know a better experience~ getting to hold your living, breathing healthy baby in your arms!!!.

I really hope your able to have the birth you want to have, but more importantly Im praying to the goddess all my pregnant friends have strong healthy babies.

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